随着潮起潮落 季节的变迁

我们都变了

还记得吗？那年的遇见
我们曾以为不会有离别

可当人生的道路 来到了
这个交叉点 我们残酷的
选择了不同的方向

还记得吗？ 那年的离别
我们曾念念不舍看着彼此的背影
消失在人海

可现在我们再次相遇
有如陌生人般
擦肩而过

是什么改变了我们？
让美好的誓言
从缤纷做到调零？

也许命中注定这一切
相遇，离别，再次相遇
让我们看清了 在这个
无情的世界了

没有永恒……

Being exposed to alot of strange things lately. And it got me thinking.

They say that the world is coming to an end on 2012. That the Earth, the Sun, and the black hole in the middle of the milky way galaxy will form a straight line, thus changing the magnetic fields of the Earth. There will be earthquakes, vocano eruptions, tsunami... and even the bible and many other legendary predicted the fatal date: 21/12/2012.

Well, I have been looking at the bible lately. I am a free thinker, and I just can not accept the belief that there is a force that is beyond our imagination. God. Who are you? Do you really exist? Or are you just a mere fiction that people choose to turn to when they feel helpless?

Everything in the world follows a principle. But sometimes, things happen that can not be explained. Maybe they are just rumours. Who knows. And who are we to predict how and when our world is going to end?

The dying of the Sun, the collapsing of Milky way and the universe. Natural disasters, global warming, ozone dipliction. The shifting of the North and South pole, the changing in climate, the rising of sea level.

There are so many ways that the earth could end. There are many ways that the human civilization will be completely wiped out just in the blink of an eye. And just like the dinosours, we will be a legend for the what ever highly intelligent creature that will dominate the world again.

Who knows? Maybe tomorrow, you and I will be freed from this hell. Surrendered to the force that is way beyond our control.

Fate.

And fate says you cant be here for internity. You've got to go so that sth else can replace you. Just like how you replaced the dinosours. And this cycle repeats itself. Perhaps, until one day that the Eart is eaten up by the very thing that gave its life- the Sun.

那柔美的音乐
又一次平息了那
充满仇恨，嫉妒，埋怨
而原本善良童真的心灵

如果Eve和Adam没有
屈服于邪恶而吃下
智慧之果

我们是不是永远都会
活在一个天真无邪的天堂？

这个世界太复杂了
喧闹的街巷
进退两难的决定
流不完的眼泪
下不完的暴雨
何时
才能平静下来？
听听这柔美的音乐……

我只求一点点安宁

心 嘀嗒嘀嗒在流着那
苦涩的血
何时有人能听到
那隐约的哭叫

泪 嘀嗒嘀嗒的涌出
不可容纳的眼眶
何时有人能看到
那晶莹剔透的水

雨 嘀嗒嘀嗒的下着
毫不留情的打在地面
何时有人能感觉到
那温柔的痛

在这伸手不见五指的黑暗里
有谁
在雨中

无声的哭泣？

So many things has happened lately.

Its funny how the human minds work. At one moment you can be so focused on something that you completely ignored the rest. And when you looked back, you will realise that... Oh gosh, why have i missed such a wonderful thing because I am too into another?

Now that the NYSC seniors are leaving, we are stepping up. Frankly when I knew that i was in EXCO it really came a shock to me. And to know that I no longer belong to the PRC that I loved, I was quite... disappointed or so i should say. And my tears were even contagious to my other batch mates.

How could they be so cruel? How could they take it away from me just as my Founders' Day project is on this process and just when I am starting to feel a much stronger sense of belonging to PRC? And what's even more hard to believe is that how could they trust that I could head a committee that i never even knew of?

I still remeber the tiny little wish during investiture when i hoped that next year I would be one of the exco that walked down the hall last, that the most claps were given. But why does it hurt so much now that my dream came true?

As i've said, its funny how the human minds works. I am always surpassing others when i dont even believe that i have the ability in me, and others are surpassing me in areas that i had the most confidence in myself.

Is this mircale? Is this coincidence? Is this the chance, that destiny has rewarded me with? Is this the sign for the even tougher road ahead of me?

What ever it is, I do not have a chance against the battle with destiny. Perhaps the best way out, is to accept.

I'll continue to walk on, no matter what tough journey is ahead of me. jia you to me!

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不争气的眼泪 不是因为你的责备
而是因为我恨自己
为何没有 勇气
来告诉你 我真的很讨厌你

讨厌你 从来没有想公平的对待我们
讨厌你 对我们的歧视
讨厌你 只对他们微笑
讨厌你的一切一切

我从未 如此的恨过一个人
恭喜你，你是第一个