So many things has happened lately.
Its funny how the human minds work. At one moment you can be so focused on something that you completely ignored the rest. And when you looked back, you will realise that... Oh gosh, why have i missed such a wonderful thing because I am too into another?
Now that the NYSC seniors are leaving, we are stepping up. Frankly when I knew that i was in EXCO it really came a shock to me. And to know that I no longer belong to the PRC that I loved, I was quite... disappointed or so i should say. And my tears were even contagious to my other batch mates.
How could they be so cruel? How could they take it away from me just as my Founders' Day project is on this process and just when I am starting to feel a much stronger sense of belonging to PRC? And what's even more hard to believe is that how could they trust that I could head a committee that i never even knew of?
I still remeber the tiny little wish during investiture when i hoped that next year I would be one of the exco that walked down the hall last, that the most claps were given. But why does it hurt so much now that my dream came true?
As i've said, its funny how the human minds works. I am always surpassing others when i dont even believe that i have the ability in me, and others are surpassing me in areas that i had the most confidence in myself.
Is this mircale? Is this coincidence? Is this the chance, that destiny has rewarded me with? Is this the sign for the even tougher road ahead of me?
What ever it is, I do not have a chance against the battle with destiny. Perhaps the best way out, is to accept.
I'll continue to walk on, no matter what tough journey is ahead of me. jia you to me!
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不争气的眼泪 不是因为你的责备
而是因为我恨自己
为何没有 勇气
来告诉你 我真的很讨厌你
讨厌你 从来没有想公平的对待我们
讨厌你 对我们的歧视
讨厌你 只对他们微笑
讨厌你的一切一切
我从未 如此的恨过一个人
恭喜你,你是第一个